done :)

I received my registration letter 12th Dec 2007 - I'm now a registered pharmacist! 4 years of study and 1 tough internship year to get this piece of paper..


*ahem* and for the thank you speech:
To Mum and Dad for the endless hours on the phone and texts
To the rest of my family for being there
To my flat family especially Kevin and Nads, thank you :)
To my awesome lifegroup(s), Leben, Jian's, Rain's, for always being so supportive..
Special thanks to Ruth, Eunice, Jess.. your prayers and presence
To my mentor Alice for the lunchtime cry sessions at the hospital chapel
To Josh for being your patience and words of encouragement
To Indra, Uncle and Auntie Koh for teaching me how to fight this spiritual battle
To the Intern Programme managers, Trish and Debbie for all your support
To Heei, Anita, James for your kind advice, support and for being there
To my wonderful colleagues for making work fun whenever you could (Go Krystal!)
To so very many of you that have prayed for me, been there for me, Dennis, Martin, Josh K, Auntie and Uncle Then.. and so many more of you..
Please forgive me for the times that i wasnt there, if i have said or done anything wrong, i'm sorry. I will try to do better.

Last but not least, thank You, Jesus, my Lord and Savior. For without Your peace, Your Word, Your armour, i would not have made it through the year. Thank You for everything :D *loves*

thoughts

I always tell myself that i'm no good at writing blog entries... that i dont have the vocab nor the ideas to interest people that read. But after thinking for a bit, i am brought back to the reason why i started blogging. Not to impress or necessarily entertain anyone, but more as a journal of life. So that friends that i dont email can catch a glimpse of what happens here in my life. Hopefully some of the things blogged will encourage friends and family, some of the pictures will serve as imprints of memories embedded in my mind, just a way to express how i feel and think.. footprints that never wash away as the tide comes in.. in my memory.. forever footprints.

There are times when i read a friend's blog and think to myself "I was there.." knowing what they went through, the roller coaster of emotions. And yet there are often times when i read another blog and think to myself "Gosh.. i didnt realise that they were going through that.." or "I wish i could help.. i wonder if they would share that with me, would trust me enough to let me know.." Then again, it's not just purely about trusting, is it? I find it hard to tell everyone that i trust everything. A few friends that i would feel ok sitting down on the floor and just bawling my eyes out, knowing that i can be so vulnerable. How do we choose who to tell things to?

I feel sad knowing you're leaving. Knowing i'll be leaving too. It became more complicated than i thought. Lasted too long than either of us would have liked it to. It has been a blessing to have you in my life. Maybe next time? I'm afraid to make promises i am not sure i can keep, but one day i know God will lead you to her. I guess now i truly know what it means when they say to love is to let go. I'm sorry. I cannot say sorry enough.. It'll be interesting to see what happens. I have to stop dwelling on what may be and move on to what's ahead. Need a clear vision.. need to pray for one.

To you. Mum always tells me of the paths that we choose and how it will affect more than just us, but those around us. I truly have loved you, sorry if i didnt express it in the way that you understood. You have been a sister to me and i will always cherish the times we spent together. I wish i could promise you that one day your prince charming will come, but i know the only person who can do that for you and me is Him. His plan is supreme and it takes me a while to get my head around it. So often i try to take things into my hands, and like what Ross Pickworth said this morning, the words of the songs that i sing do not reflect what my actions say about my heart. Mumble talks about his heartsong... your heartsong is beautiful. I can assure you that. We are both young *ahem* though you a few years younger than i. I'm sorry if i have wronged you in any way, words and or actions. Thank you for everything that you've done. Your contagious laughter and your youthfulness. It makes me feel a few years younger :)

But then again, Jesus said share...

Two more days to go!!! Pray everything is settled smoothly and that i am not called up after i've left.

Dear Prince Charming, I pray your day's good today. I told Mum i want a minimum of 2 kids and a maximum of 3 (No more oh!). So that all can fit into a 5-seater car. :) Must ok? Hehe.. Love you.

Tired of the mess i created
Crawling through it all
Looking in at the sadness
Painful was the fall

Tired of the tears at night
Sleeping once the sobs
Had faded gradually
The joy that it robs

I want to leave it all behind
To run away from it all
But sin has its consequences
awaiting to befall

The numbness in my heart
run
run
run away

Your strength is made perfect in weakness..

help...