goodbye

Aunt Daisy passed away last Tuesday. I dont understand why this had to be so. I only had 2 and a half weeks to go to Melbourne.

This world is full of goodbyes, some temporary, some for a long time. But the only consolation i can get is that i'll see you again in heaven. And by then, we have an eternity. :) So you better like me! Hee..

I have realised that letting go isnt saying goodbye, it is the start of a new beginning.

It's nice and chilly

It looks innocently warm outside. The sun's shining. I've also just realised that our high in Dunedin is Auckland's low. Hmm... Paul just commented, "Guess this is what i dont like about Dunedin..." So if we are optimistic people, i'd be thankful for the unlimited air-conditioning in Dunny. Plus air-conditioning that doesnt break down or need constant cleaning of filters or water leaking! :P

I have learnt that the devil can speak in my voice, and the quality of piracy is so good it's almost like me! That's scary! But i have decided that the more he pulls me away from the One and Loving God, the harder i am going to push back! And you see, it's not by my own strength that i do, but by the strength of the Holy Spirit that lives in me.

I rejoice in the strong bonds and friendships of lifegroups, especially seeing Ben's and Jess' and Las' G12 just grow and grow. I found out today that they have a G12 blog too! That was a pleasant surprise. You see, sometimes i wonder the plans God has for us. I remember reviewing my 2006 resolutions with Him and ticking them off as i heard the "Ok". I think He's allowing to happen, i have to play my part. At this point in time, i'm a bit tired in the race... like reaching my 1500m mark, the lethargy and muscle strain as i push on to stride my way to the prize. When you're tired, that's when the devil works the hardest to pull you down. To make you evaluate why you're doing this, why have so many things running through your mind to live a life that bring Him glory. The uncertainty of a future that is held in God's hands. And when you're tired, you want to stop and rest, even for just a little while. A teeny tiny little while?

No! I can do all things through Him who strengthens me (Phil 4:13)

But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in your weakness." Therefore i wil boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, i delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when i am weak, then i am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:8-10

O is for Officially Over

I sat for the last of 3 exams this semester yesterday. Monday's paper didnt go down too well, and i came out feeling like a very burnt piece of steak. Dried up. Tasteless. To be thrown away. And periodically on Monday and Tuesday and even yesterday morning, i'd get this voice in my head going "You deserve this. Fail. Why are you even trying for paper B? You'll disappoint.. " It went on and on. So bad that i'd feel nauseas and at the verge of throwing up. Even at the gym. But then i realised that words like those cannot be from Him. He'd never condemn. And so i rebuked the spirit of fear, failure and hopelessness, the devil sure doesnt know when to quit it (!!!), and spent some time in His presence. I was listening to Kev's church CD. Bridewarrior. (You guys just have to get a hold of one. It's awesome! I think i've listened to it like 20 times over already, and still going! :P) And just worshipping, praying, and the peace of God filled the room. His rest. The tranquility. I was changed. His promises that i will rise, not by my strength, but by His grace and love for me. It wasnt about my circumstances, it was about the trust. And so, with renewed strength, i made a promise to Him, that i'm going to do my very best in the last paper and not let my fears and uncertainties take over me and because....

My God is BIG, so STRONG, so MIGHTY

Thank you for all the encouragement and prayers and texts and phonecalls.

*hugs*

Today my middle name is zombie. The back of my legs *ouch*

O is for Orals and Over

There are some things that are so serious you have to laugh at them. Niels Bohr

1 down, 2 to go. I had my Orals yesterday, along with the other 113 Pharmacy 4th year students. My first station was at 4pm. I called home at 1pm. Hearing my parents' and my sister's voices helped calm my nerves. Talking about nerves, i got myself dressed and ready by 11am, just to psych myself up. And when i'd reached 5th floor, waiting outside with 11 other students, Ann, our very lovely technician, approached me as i was pacing the 5th floor, and said "Angela.... BREATHE."

God granted me a lot of grace. For clinicals, 2 parts were alright. I'd remembered my
male erectile dysfunction drugs. So if the doctor had prescribed nitrolingual spray with Viagra, the poor man would have died from a MI. The 3rd part, however, was on prostate cancer. A topic i know nearly ziltch about. Really blessed to have gone to Eve's earlier on before the exam and listened to her speech about prostate cancer. But i only remembered 2 drugs. Better than nothing, i told myself. And oh yea, i had my 2 favourite tutors too! They were very nice and helped me out with the prostate stuff.

Second station was Sciences. Morphine pharmacokinetics. I almost cried. I couldnt remember. And gave IV information instead of oral somemore. :'( I flipped through the textbook in my brain, and at the page entitled "Morphine PK", it was just a blur. Dot asked HIV life cycle and drugs. I knew the drugs better than the life cycle.

Labels... is it just me or was it too simple? Argh. Then did i miss out on something??

OTCs. I got James =) and a lady with sunburn. Picked up on doxycycline photosensitivity, but i forgot to tell her when she should see a doctor is symptoms persist. The whole time i was baking Paul's cake when i came home, things kept on coming back to me, about what i should have said and had forgotten. So i should stop thinking.

Dinner at The Jitzu. Nice place. Forgot to take photos.

I went for Steps this morning. Will definitely need someone to do my stepping for me tomorrow. I wonder if i'll be able to walk.

Praying for everyone burying their noses in their notes and textbooks. And thanks for all the texts!! =D

I think my dry painful cough is coming back. Boohoo...

Conscience says to Ange "Oi! Back to studying!!" Ok, ok! Just let me click on publish post....

Snowball + fight = truce

truce?

It was cold enough for us to have our first snow, 4th day of winter 2006, Dunedin.

It started out innocent. I was just on the phone with my family back home before i even realised the light snow outside. Dan said

"Erchea, can you save me a snowball in the fridge for when i come at the end of the year?"

So that was why i went outside in the first place, to save a snowball for Dan. But hmm... i think i gave a different impression as a rounded a snowball in my hands...

barricading. strategy. Note Kevin and the deadly snowball in his hands.

Tired, wet and very dirty people. I need a shower and Kev turns transparent.

Help me

I can do all things through Him who gives me strength @Philippians 4:13

We take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ @Colossians 10:5b

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me, when you seek Me with all your heart @Jeremiah 29:11

Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with a breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests @Ephesians 6:14-18

Do not be conform any longer to the patern of this world, but be tranformed by the renewing of your mind @Romans 12:2